What a wonderful last few days

I haven't had a chance to blog in the last few days and it's funny how I feel when I don't get the chance to. I walk around feeling like I haven't completed my day. It's funny to me now since blogging has never been apart of my day. :)
I sure have learned alot about myself since Friday. Things that got tough because I wasn't honest in a certain area to my family. Once I decided to get honest, it was tough and alot of things like running came through my mind. But this time, I just stood there and took it and believe it or not, it helped in the end. I had put myself under so much stress last week, that it started affecting my health. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat. I had the fake smile and the discontentment in my soul. I started reading the Word and realized how fake I was in this area. How I was literally destroying myself and my marriage. I realized that I need to love the me I am when nobody is looking. I realized, once again, that God see's all, all the time. Now, don't get me wrong, I wasn't out doing wrong things, I just wasn't being honest to my husband and to me that is just as wrong as cheating. Doing anything behind your spouse's back that can hurt them just from trusting you, can destroy the trust you have worked so hard to build. Thankfully, I found out how much that man really loves me, because that situation was an easy way out and he stood there and held me anyway. He was there for me over the weekend when he had no reason other to be there.

I guess my point to all this sharing is, whatever you do in your life, at the end of the day, if you can't look at yourself in the mirror and love what and who you are for that very moment, somthing needs to change, and that change is nobody but YOU.
I thank God for teaching me, even at the age that I am, each day who He is, and how trusting Him is the easiest thing to do when you take out all other equations.