I finally got the subject line for my book!

I have tons of thoughts running through my mind 24/7 here lately. All I can think about is writing, reading about it, blogging and sharing topics with friends on facebook, talking to my sisters about it and even watching movies with writing as the topic. I cannot get enough of it. It shouldn't shock me since it's in my DNA to write and I've known for 8 years now that I'm destined to write. Just never have I really put it into practice as I have in the last few weeks. Each day the drive gets stronger to where I can't sleep without thoughts hitting me so hard, I have to get up to write them down. With all that said, I know I'll be writing a book this year but until tonight I couldn't narrow it down to what I want to write about... first anyway.
I knew it would come to me, just didn't know when or how. So much I want to write about but knew I had to start with one subject. It has even gotten to the point of craziness and it made it very hard to concentrate when so many ideas were coming at me. When people ask me what my book will be about, I couldn't give them an answer.. until now.
I laid down to go to sleep with my wonderful husband holding me, knowing my mind wasn't ready to shut off yet. I started praying. Thanking God for all He is in my life. Thanking Him for the doors opening and letting Him know how thankful I am that He loves me so much. I told God thank you for giving me the desire to write so many years ago. That when I sit down to do it, I actually feel complete. I then prayed for wisdom and direction. I told Him I had so many thoughts and ideas but didn't know where to start, or should I say, what subject to start with and stick to it until the end. I needed ONE project, ONE subject to stay on so my mind wouldn't go crazy and blow up! Sure I could always talk about my testimony of how God pulled me out of the death trap I had put myself into, but that wasn't the FIRST thing I wanted people to read. It will come, but not now. Besides, that's what everybody is expecting anyway, and I'm not ready for them to see that part... no not yet.
So as I prayed, I stopped long enough for the Lord to speak to me. Without hesitation He answered me. I dug deeper than just my mistakes that caused my life hurt. I dug all the way down to the core of everything that has always been hidden.. always been denied... and always has hurt the worse... My Daddy.
WOW! Just saying those two words scrambles my brain and my emotions, but this is one subject I know little yet alot about. I know this is a direction from God because it just 'feels' right. The right time, everything! It's time for complete healing for me, once and for all. No matter how many tears I cry through this, no matter how many times I have to walk away from the computer, I have to do this! With God I can! He doesn't leave you when He directs you and this is to all the Glory to Him. Every bit of it!